No Work

I have no work, therefore no money in the pipeline.

I had four jobs lined up, but all four have withered up. One had their own financial problems, and the $1,000 deposit I've been expecting since the last week of September, along with the contract for services, have not arrived. And I don't know when they will. Mostly because the client doesn't know. And they had contacted me in September stating they were ready to move forward with their project.

Two clients wrote that they feel like they need to spend more time with their manuscript, but they'll get back to me after Thanksgiving.

And the last one? I've heard nothing.

I have one final project I'm managing, and the proofs are here for the author, but I need to drive across town and hand it to them--I think I'll send R tomorrow. It looks great to me. I don't know how much I'm getting paid for this gig, although I've already received $50- last month, because the spreadsheets of payments for projects from this vendor does not include fees for what I'm doing. When I asked Ms. Alzeheimer, she said, "Don't worry; you'll get paid."

Huh.

So, things are bad here at our house. The TV / Land Line / Internet are off. I either go somewhere with free WiFi (McDonald's, Denny's, Starbucks, etc.), or we ride on an open WiFi from one of our neighbors. Niiiiiiice. Not proud of that. I asked our cable company for a 48 hour extension on paying our bill, and they said no. Unbelievable. So we've decided to do without (for now).

My husband, who is unemployed, gets the last of his unemployment pay on December 29th, so that may get us through the middle of January. If he doesn't get a job soon, we are Fucked. No doubt about it.

I have an iron in another fire, but I don't wish to talk about it in public. But it won't come before January either.

So to say I'm a bit down in the dumps is an understatement.

My whole life has been like this, and I'm so fucking sick of it.